I just saw a post in another place that read 'And the truth is: I pretend to be a cynic but I am really a dreamer who is terrified of wanting something I may never get.'
That hit too hard and too close to home. That was upsetting.
I regularly want things I may never get. Probably will never get. I'm 50 and still living with parents (although technically they are living in my house now rather than me living in theirsโฆ) I'll probably be single forever. I'll probably never get round to making a lot of costumey stuff I've had in mind for literal decades now. Same for web services I want to build. I'm mostly resigned to it now, though. Maybe I'll get to some of these things someday. I don't know.